The Invisible Hand

Experiencial learning appears to be the most effective mode of assimilating and aquiring new information for me. That being noted, I had the most amazing experience yesterday with frostbrn, my son.

Something to note is that frostbrn lives in Seattle Wa. and I in BG, Oh. My laptop which holds all my secrets as well as everday workable information, was not working well at all. This is my primary tool for my job as a college instructor and personal enjoyment. Thus, I was disabled. Not obtaining success from our tech center, though they did all they could, I sat daunted over the entire ordeal. For once in my life I was totally without a plan (something rare for me). Then, my cell phone rang with a call from frostbrn (another rarity as he works constantly and has other responsibilities). After general chit chat, he learned of my dilemma and offered to repair my computer via the internet. We went through the necessary channels to achieve this ability (he being the mastermind and major player) with the final permission of access left to me.

Eagerly I pushed the button, letting him into my computer and my soul. I watched in awe as the curser moved seemingly on its own as if a ghost or unseen force was manuevering it. As I beheld my son's movements and listened to his explanations of those movements over my cell phone, I was overwhelmed with God's way of working in our lives also. I realized it is much like frostbrn. I couldn't see him, but I could hear him and see the results of his efforts. So true of God. I cannot see Him, but I can hear Him in my heart and see evidence of His work in my life.
The similarities do not stop there. In order for these things to take place, regarding God, I need to give Him access to my soul also.

Now there is a risk involved as was with frostbrn in my computer. He had the ability to abuse, misuse, and destroy some of my most precious ideas such as my book if he wanted to, for he had access to all files. However, I trusted his love for me would prevent such harm. So too with God. Letting Him in, gives Him access to all my files of life and sometimes I can see Him entering a sacred place and then allow fear to indulge in doubt as trust in His love begins to wane. He could destroy me, but I must believe that He loves me enough to only seek my good, even when I do not understand why He is pushing some particular button. I watched frostbrn open several files, some I was not aware even existed, and manupulate the abilities of my computer uncomprehesible to me. Again, trust was necessary, for he is the master computer genius and I the learner. Sometimes he couldn't explain what he was doing because I was not familiar with the terminology and what was needed had to be accomplished rapidly. My role was to watch in awe and trust that the decisions he was making concerning my computer were the best for me.

Can you see where this is going? Many times we do not understand what God is doing, for His ways are higher than our ways and His thoughts are higher than our thoughts, but we must trust that He is the master genius of our lives and that what He is doing is for our ultimate good.

As frostbrn completed his tasks he gave strong warning to me to use the safeguards installed to prevent any preditors from gaining access and allow no one else into the sacred places he had traveled. "Now Mom, don't let anyone have access to your computer but me."
So also I hear my Beloved Savior whisper into the cell phone of my heart concerning my soul.

Ever and Always
Beth